I literally forgot how much I despise driving in the snow. Like I get all angry/frightened/partially happy that it IS actually snowing until I realize that, wait a minute....it's snowing and I'm DRIVING. And then the cycle starts all over again all while having to figure out where the stupid lines are on the road, which, just for the record, are white. And what else is white?
Freaking snow.
How do you expect me to know where the lines are if you want to just blend them in with one of the most dangerous weather tools ever?
Fools.
Fools run the world, I tell ya.
But I guess what I'm really here to talk about is...time. That sounds so simple when I type it out, but in my head it's so complex. It's one of those things that you don't realize you have it until it's gone.
As a kid, I just remember thinking how the days went on and on and ON. Other than that, I literally had no concept of time. I never once looked at a clock. Never had somewhere to be. Something to do. People to meet.
Nothing. It was just that simple.
We could do 17 different activities AND walk the dog and still have the rest of the day left to do whatever we wanted.
Now? Now I can't start my day without thinking about time. Without thinking about where I have to be. What I have to do. People I have to see. And when it all needs to get done. I feel like I'm on a deadline everyday. There's never a rest. There's never a break. There's never a chance to sit back and just LIVE. My brain is always jumping to the next task.
I've had all the time in the world to process this over my Christmas break. And I've come to the conclusion that we're moving too fast. We're missing the small things in life.
I'm getting ready to graduate this spring. How did that happen?! I feel like I was just complaining about how long it was going to take to get OUT of high school. And now I feel like I've missed out on a lot of small things.
Like for example, today I've noticed small things like how pretty the sky gets on a daily basis, how scary it is to drive in the snow at 6:30 in the morning, how little words and phrases can mean so much, how family really is a necessity, or even how a stupid glass of real apple juice can make all the difference in a day.
I've noticed that I love when I have some of my regulars come into my job. Like the lady that calls me the "Toms girl" because I wear Toms shoes all the time. And how we bond over shoes and the stupid stuff that happens to us on a regular basis.
I've noticed that I take for granted my friends. The ones who can be my 2 am when I really need to call and wake them up because something is wrong.
Or how an oatmeal creme pie can cure any "sickness". Seriously, those things are to die for [Ohmygosh I made a pun. Hahahaha. How funny am I? Oh boy...]
Or even how once you give up something that you've been holding on to for so long and start to move on, you feel FREE. A freedom that comes from Jesus. The One and Only. My God.
It's these little things that have been tugging at my heart strings lately and I can't bear to let another day go by without noticing them or "stopping to smell the roses", per-say.
I could go on and on about all the little things that I've noticed lately and how they bring joy to my face. It's incredible the way that I've learned to find the joy in the life that God has given me. I'm learning not to be cynical or pessimistic or downtrodden. But I'm also learning to be happy and joyful and thankful and grateful and optimistic and to just jam in the car to that song that makes me feel invincible.
And one person who's really inspired me lately (I hate to play the celebrity card, but I have to) is Taylor Swift. Getting back into her music has been one of the greatest things that has happened to me this break. She's taught me not to look at life with a sour face. To indulge in the joys. And to not wait... to just speak now.
And I find it funny that I just went up to reread my opening paragraph and found it to be partially pessimistic. Still working on that. And Jesus is still working on me.
Hardcore.
Song of the Day: Speak Now -- Taylor Swift
I'm all about some Tay lately like I just told you. And I'm all about speaking now. Which I'm gonna have to work on. Oh geez. Dang I can forreal jam to this song when I want to....except I like the Live version better. Which they don't have on Youtube. Goshdangit. Thinking positively, thinking positively...
Arms Open Wide...
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